Its been a while I'm not updating this blog! n yes for sure i really busy with my final year schedule, recently baru habis dgn viva a.k.a final research proposal presentation, supposed to be editing lagi.. hmm apapun so far so good la, next focus final exam lagi, well my paper start on 30JUNE which second puasa..hohoo.. Puasa yg d rindu menjelma lagi.. dear coming puasa please nice to me, me nda maw sedi2 lagi, me maw puasa kali ni puasa yg paling bermakna n menjadi raya yg best ever...kehkhekehk..
BTW there a lot on my mind spinning around.. ohemjeyyy i will graduate soon, n what most in mymind, where i belong after this? berjaya ka aku? hmmm dilemma! apapun yg pastinya me tidak akan sambung MASTER? mysist said that if possible dia maw me cepat habis, kerja balas semua, ya Allah dilemma betingkek2, just imagine if after this i still dont have any job after graduated, tu la susa juga ba, beljar tinggi pun susa, nda bljar pun susa.. hmmmm.. My fren told me, "untungla korang umur muda, dah graduate as degree holder", if dia, dia said maw further lagi Master level.......
n good news pagi tadi dapat tawaran interview, sambung Master, ALHAMDULILLAH terima kasih ya ALLAH dpat tawaran ni but as for me its not dilemma at all rasanya dgn Degree ni pun cukupla suda ba, lagipun i still remember myumi said, "sambung seja ni ijazah, lepas ijazah ni ko maw buat apa, kw buatla, kira ini tanggungjawab terakihir sbgai org tua" Ya umi, i remember it, at first its a tough decision for me.. where in mydegree life, i have a lot problem.. teringat lagi masa mula2 mendaftar as degree student! dugaan terbesar dlm hidup menimpa, kena2 lagi in when stay outside, mcm2 hal lagi dugaan dgn housmtes, tp Alhamdulillah everything OKAY...
hmmmm..after all, now terlintas suda d fikiran maw behijrah ke semannjung lepas study ni, maw cari rezeki d negeri org, ya Tuhan mampuka aq Tuhan!! n YES i want it, but how about myfamily?? mesti tak setujukan? lebi2 lagi mysist, but apa ja juga ada d Tawau tu? i plan maw buka bisnes ba, tapi bisnes apa juga me mampu! yes i really wanna be a businesswomen..hmmmm..peluang pekerjaan yg amat nipis n as myfirst la kan i plan that i want cari d KK dulu? but adaka tu r? kk pun susa la, kena lagi tgal UA ni jaw dr bandar lainla kalu ada kenderaan kesana kemari.. ya tuhan banyk btul d fikiran..
In other side, ni lagi satu hot issues! KHAWIN?? actually dont care at all juga bab ni, but when come to other friends, ramai dah kawin, ada baby, yg tunang, yg bakal kawin lagi.. hmmm despite me, masi tercari2, masi tertunggu2.. ya i know juga, me bukan sepa2, ntahla susa juga maw ckp ba, bukan teda juga yg maw, ada tu mmg ada, tpi ntha la hati ni kenapa? ada kwn bilng lagi, tu la ika telalu memili? hmmmm ntahla maw ckp no, tp mcm eya jugak? sakit ba tu kecewa, kalu bole, becinta biarla yg smpai kejinjang pelamin bah, nda maw main2 suda, sakit ba tu kecewa, mcm maw bunu diri pun ada..kahkakhakh.. tu la kejadian bila cinta makhluk lebi dari cintakan sang pencipta.. sy sedar kesalahan dulu, terima kasih Allah.. n now lebi bersedia dgn sepa2 yg datang.. hahaha.. nda pala, for almost two years, all i can say "SAYA PERCAYA BAPAK YANG D ATAS if its meant to be it will be"... suda la ika, jgn fikir tu dulu, yg penting hala tuju lepas ni? hmmmmm d where i belong??? scaryyyyyy! DOAKAN SAYA KAWAN2 :)
